I'm sad

simply beyond the pale

by any means necessary

http://img156.imageshack.us/img156/349/makeme.jpg

earnestly says things like "you're a rad dude"

lol

My friend died suddenly last night, massive stroke. Shocked, definitely sad.

Oh Zora I'm sorry. What a horrible shock.

:(

That's very sad, Zora. I'm sorry.

Thanks guys. So totally out of the blue, and he was a really great bloke. His name was Colin Harvey, he wrote a book called Damage Time and he always made me laugh.

<3<3

I'm really, really sorry to hear about this.

i just found out that my ex has a new boyfriend. i didn't realize i still subscribed to her flicker account rss feed, and up pops a picture of them.

i know this shouldn't affect me so much. i moved on a long time ago, i've been seeing a girl off and on, etc. but seeing that picture of them really close, that look in her eye and smile, it really hurts. i couldn't make her smile like that for the last year or two we were together. it's something beyond just the facial muscles that you can see in the eyes.

anyway, don't bother responding or consoling, i already know the advice (the fact that i couldn't make her smile like that anymore was a sign that something had gone terribly wrong), and i knew this moment would come at some point. it's been 3 months since we broke up. but i'm just...posting this. for some reason. and drinking. a lot.

in the background of the picture is my old bedroom

i guess i'm just really glad i don't know him. it would be hundred times worse if i knew him.

<3

oh man, i'm sorry. even when you rationally know better, some shit always hurts.

yes. <3

you unsubscribed from her flikr rss feed immediately afterwards, right?

yeah

yeah i think social network sites/current state of the internet = bad in that sense. when i encounter stuff like that one part of me is like 'oh here's a great opportunity to get past jealousy in a pure way and just wish the best for someone that i ostensibly care about' but the other part of me is like 'well, they look happy enough now, but they will be as unhappy as the rest of us in due time'

which is fucked, but i have a lot of growing up to do.

good - that's pretty much the only advice i'd give you.

Apart from: ime months 3 - 6 post break-up are the worst.

Ooofffff. Justified pain.

again my shocking lack of lifecycle relationship experience maturity slaps me in the face. meaning that somehow i'm 28 and this is the first time that someone i really cared about has moved on to someone else.

turns out it blows!

3 months is really, really not long after an LTR either.

plenty of people don't have this experience until they're a lot older than you are, or by the time they have it, it's been at least a decade since they last experienced it

yeah zs i still think about people that are years and years ago here and again. i guess the best thing is to think of how it was fortunate to make that connection with someone for a point in time. 'cos all things considered it's a blessing and kind of amazing for two people to meet like that and so forth (talking aloud to myself... realize you specifically anti-requested advice)

ime the good news here is that this is both as bad as it gets and the beginning of the last stage of a serious breakup.

but yeah it sucks

i think it gets worse for a little while longer tbh

no, i appreciate it del. and yeah, darraghmac, i did have that thought. just like, "finally, i can really, really move on".

why does every possible thing i can think of to do right now seem so fucking pathetic?

have you considered going to the supermarket and buying Hungry Man frozen dinners?

then imagine yourself 20 years older, wearing relaxed fit khakis

sarahel otm

there's nothin wrong with relaxed fit khakis yis bastards

ha. well, it didn't help that when i saw the picture i was drinking a beer and eating a frozen pizza by myself, just like i do pretty much all of the time. the picture looked like they had just gotten out of the rain, or the pool, or maybe they were just having sweaty sex and got out of the shower. anyway, they didn't look like they had plans to drink a beer and eat frozen pizzas by themselves.

I have sweaty sex with frozen pizzas in the shower all the time, it doesn't make you less sad ime

better than sweaty pizza in a frozen shower tbf

gonna defer to Esther Weingarten who was good w/this today:
http://thehairpin.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/New-Year1.jpg

Apart from: ime months 3 - 6 post break-up are the worst.

finding out that this is general/non-exclusive/shared knowledge is v comforting btw

just put a pic of yrself on flickr REALLY ENJOYING a pizza z, fight fire with fire (i have no actual advice here i just feel you & think that feeling shitty is basically the deal & is okay, so)

is it good pizza?

was it good for you

it's a harris teeter cheese pizza that i customized with green peppers, onions and tomatoes and cayenne pepper. i took a pizza that was a 2/10 and made it a 4/10. *insert pizza std joke*

dunno if you are joking, but i have bought frozen pizzas before at the supermarket that are labeled "individual serving" or whatever, and i felt way too self-conscious about it, like is the cashier judging me for being single? which is completely fucking insane, but whatever. i only have so much control over the thoughts which pass through the dell highway

i say re-flickr/fb the pic of you at the overnight protest

that sounds pretty good zach!

this is a full size pizza. when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

this is possible as long as it is possible

customizing supermarket frozen pizzas is a sign of hope/progress.

this is a full size pizza. when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

i also do this

So sorry Zs <3

Deems otm though. It's no consolation right now, but her moving on will make you move on faster too, ultimately

when i eat pizza i eat as much as possible so that i don't have to think about eating again for as long as possible

u skinny fucker

when I eat pizza I eat as much as possible because it's pizza