I'm sad

- sorry - via a friend's experience what this might feel like. I have a lot of respect for everyone who lives with that kind of experience every day and has to cope with the unpredictability of the downs. Very best wishes.

I'd just like to thank you all for your very kind words and feelings. I really appreciate it.

The fallout from what happened with my dad is unfortunately just a catalyst for, or is the most easily explained aspect of, my own personal feelings of depression, which have been around for much longer and seem to be making themselves all too prevalent in the last few months. It feels like dark dark times right now and I'm not at all sure of what's going to be the way out.

whatever you do, just keep pushing forward and try to find even the smallest of ways to make progress everyday. writing about how you feel and tracking your progress in a journal or something might help too. and keep posting here. ILX is pretty great. <3 and good vibes

Krakow, hugs, seek help if needs be.

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I posted to the Holiday Blues thread earlier today so I def know how shitty this can feel esp at this time of year. Hope every feels better soon.

― ★彡☆ ★彡 (ENBB), Monday, December 21, 2009 9:53 PM

huh.

biochemistry can be all over the place this time of year, even before you factor in all the other potential stresses. stay strong, sister :)

gurl

<3

<3

*message of goodwill*

lol so English! ;)

Thanks all. I'll be fine just one of days/season's whatever, I guess.

Was just thinking 'fuck this shit' and then reminding myself that this is the usual 2 or 3 day 'fuck Christmas' feeling I get every year. Should be gone by XEve.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3MCrlkdfnk

broke, need a job, no temp jobs looking since it's the holidays, need to make $400 in two weeks

not sad, but worried

I hear your Corey. I really do.

* you

thanks, res

stay strong guys, i'm also fed up and yeah mostly likely stupid seasonal reasons

holidays are the worst. be well, everyone.

I was sad but then I watched The View and now I am taking some time to enjoy ~~~the view~~~

judging u

ok, not really

http://i35.tinypic.com/2yuxabr.gif

Ida Mae Brown!!!

<3

OK that gif is perfect

oda not ida whoops

Homesick. Trying hard to throw myself into being organized & doing little things to keep my brain occupied. Get to surprise my Mum with a Skype call tomorrow (her first), which will be awesome...hopefully not counterproductive bell-jar-inducing.

Hugs to u guys. Be not sad? <3 <3

<3

broke, need a job, no temp jobs looking since it's the holidays, need to make $400 in two weeks

not sad, but worried

― =(^ • ‿‿ • ^)= (corey), Wednesday, 22 December 2010 18:07 (1 hour ago)

that's rough, but good luck & hoping something will fall yr way

and general good wishes to everyone

^^^

well, most of yous

list thread for the exceptions.

i wish u guys weren't sad. i dunno what else to say.

love and good wishes to sad ilxorres, there's so much hurry-up-and-wait as the holidays start and it's so wearying to be sad when time's hanging heavy on your hands. i hope you find things to distract away the sadness until you can feel better!

<3

All best to everyone. Xmas blues & $$$ drain that inevitably happens in December is a real drag.

:( chin up good people

Last year at this time I had $25 in the bank, 5 hours a week of regular work, a broken-down car, wildly fluctuating mood swings, and a (non-ILXor) Internet acquaintance who was threatening to commit suicide on Christmas Day. This year is much, much better.

Glad to hear it! :D
A good reminder that sad times are rarely permanent.

motherfuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

so sad and confused and angry but mostly just sad

<3

?

sent you a fb message.

I'm ok just venting. Sometimes that helps. Sorta like screaming but I didn't want to scare the neighbors. Feel a little better now tbh.

do we need a thread of cathartic screeeeeeeaming

scream into a pillow

(not being snarky btw)

Used to scream into pillow loads in my depression years. Was the best part imo.

hey, i hope this is a brief, fleeting feeling, and that things quickly improve for you.

cosigned

enbb is a vital part of the ilx ecology

"You're just bastard people and I'm goin' home and I'm gonna I'm gonna bite my pillow. ..."

not any of you btw - just a good pillow biting quote

lol @ ref, not so much at the sadness part