Lif e is Hard

i think its a reasaonable response sometimes...

Mr. Hanle y, I must say I read all of your words and found them heartening. Last night I was having difficulty sleeping thinking I will never know my extents the way I am living now. I will never know how great I can be, how low I could fall. The frustrating thought for me will take form in the cliched analogy of cliimbing a mountain. You can cilmb and climb and climb and you fall once and it seems all for naught---so hard to pick yourself up after that. Life is diffiicult, I have a hard time with what seems like the simplest things, i.e. talking to others. Your thought is one that cheers me up, too. I see all thses people making enormous changes and doing things I'd like to do, it just seems impossible to do sometimes and I feel overwhelmed. But really, I do have a good life. I think the most important thing for me is to be greatful. I have a very good friend, I can entertain and please myself and others, I have solved a lot of prblems in my life. I think I need to keep in mind I am young and so are you.

I really want to help others out but I am so awkward at it anyway & I don't want to objectify those I love to a set of equations to be solved or something.

I want to know more, write more, paint more, publish more, love more. I am so busy. I feel the only "extent" I know is tiredness. I have a terrible cold and have been menstruating in an unusually heavy way for over 3 weeks. I can't not go to work or school---it is finals week & all this. I can't sleep. I feel like my enrgy is draining from all my orifi.

BUT things aren't actually bad at all. I am generally happy now, I used to not be. I am greatful for this.

Well, I don't know what that meant form anyone. Do not try to ascertain a moral from this. I am glad you posted everything you did, though, Mr. Hanle y, it made me very glad and relieved.

Yes! Happiness is being understood.

Hi Mike, I read all of your posts and have been thinking. If you are a musician, why can't you make the music you like? You are looking at the wrong person for popular here but I know a person can shine, rich or poor and excell if not at one thing then another. :) A person doesn't have to be a superstar. If you have the talent for music, why not just sing in clubs and do your own ? Or donate your services to hospitals? I really don't understand the music business anyway, so there you go. Good luck to you Dave. :) Gale

We care about you Mike! You shine right here :) Hugs Gale

THanks Gale. I guess if you heard the music I make you woudl not tell me to play it in hospitals! I guess I just need to gather a small cult following and sell my sperm and organs for rentmoney

Hi Mike, Why not sing in hospitals? Aren't there people your age who like the kinds of music you do? I guess you like metal? Gale

The thought of Hanle y singing metal in hospitals has me "laughing out loud"...

I would seriously consider deliberately breaking limbs if it meant seeing Hanle y singing metal in hospitals. [ponders "Guns'n'Roses in the hospital" jokes, decides against]

Hi Rebecca :) I am personally NOT a metal fan SHHHH. I have two sons that are though. At Christmas I perfer Mantovani Orchestra :) Gale