I'm sad

Here's some stuff other people have already done!

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OK, eat my lens

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feel better this song is stuck in my head

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6-t16lzOb0

I've been working on my undergrad so long I make Sarah Palin look like Doogie Howser. I don't like anything I do. I miss my dog and still cry about him every day. I feel like it's my fault he died & the guilt is killing me. I'm putting weight on for no discernible reason. I puke every couple days for no discernible reason. I spill and break everything. I cry at the drop of a hat.

All this shit wld make sense if I was pregnant but I'm not (keep taking those at-home tests bcz all the symptoms just line up so much in favor of babby, but alwaqys neg neg neg).

Well, you don't drink (anymore?) and you don't smoke, so if you ARE pregnant, you'll find out eventually and probably be no worse for wear.

Actually I should have phrased that as a question, because I have no idea what other things are in your life, like meds or reasons you shouldn't have/didn't want babby or wahtever.

I wonder how much sad/depressed brain is like pregnancy/baby brain. A number of my friends have recently just had babies and they talk about this distracted mental state they have that in some ways is similar.

Abbie, dear, you're grieving for your dog. It's okay. You get to do that, even if it makes you start crying in public or something. Fuck the public, they're YOUR feelings. They're valid, and you're okay.

Do try not to bleed it over into already-fragile self-esteem? It's not good for you, doll.

Ha no meds but I do drink a lot lately. My abdomen was just kicking with pain for no reason on Thursday & part of me was trying to convince myself it's an ectopic pregnancy I just know it. That was just one day though.

I miss my dog and still cry about him every day.

That's totally understandable. Our dog is almost 10, and she's been slowing down a lot over the past few years. I think my daughter will totally go to pieces when Josie (our dog) passes away.

i quit drinking this summer and i still get "sad" all the time, but instead of trying to escape with alcohol, i'm left with it staring me in the face, and now i stare back, you know? i mean, there's always a reason, and even if you don't feel like you can do anything about it, you can at the very least figure out why and stare back, let it move through you or whatever. and seriously, get some exercise, like more than a walk. that alone kept me from going completely insane earlier this year.

seriously just so bad right now ftw

aw hugs to abbott and sunny and ZS and other saddies of ilx. It *is* the darkest day of the year, y'know, so we can probably all use a break!

awww sunny :(

Sunny, is it baby blues or post-partum? If it's really bad, check with a doctor. Having two kids is extremely tiring. It fucks up your mind (and body) completely. Hugs. You know where to find me if you wanna talk!

Abbott, let it not be an ectopic pregnancy. Friend of ours just had one. :-(

internet hugz to the saddies whose sadness is augmented by the 1.2 hours of sunshine today.

internet shovez to mongrels and sheepfuxors in their 22.8 hours of sunshine

deep breathing

abbott please dont end up being one of those chicks on 'i didnt know i was pregnant!'

nath, there have been complications with the c-section so instead of speanding maternity leave enjoying Herny im spending it planning surgeries, crying and watching freaking dr oz.

awww 'herny'

nath, there have been complications with the c-section so instead of speanding maternity leave enjoying Herny im spending it planning surgeries, crying and watching freaking dr oz.

That's terrible. My friend also had complications from her c-section and was in pain for a while afterwards, she needed a lot of friends and family to help out because she wasn't in any condition to care for the baby. Do you have people that can offer help?

Nope. Zip. Seriously wanting to be back in australia right now

v. sorry ss <3

thanks, dudes. really i just need to snap out of it. go punch the shit out of one of those blow up clowns or something.

I'm in the saddo club too. Much love to everyone having an Eeyore moment, or year.

srsly sunny, if i cld fly over and help you out, i would. hugs and LOTS of it. i know it's easy for me to say these words - fuck, i close my laptop and that's that - but i really fucking mean it. i wish i could srsly help you out.
is it a solvable problem (if i'm allowed to ask) and how long is this shit planned? i mean, when will it be over? (sorry if i sound incoherent or just dumb, rambling and tired.)

Matt, can i drag you out of your Cave? *hugs* to you too.

And everyone else. Life's a bitch sometimes.

aw sunny :(

Aw sunny sorry abt yr body. I hope things patch up asap.

I finally had my period yesterday *relief* and thank god.

Wld buy a round of alcohol and/or massages for all my sad people.

Sunny, I wish I knew something I could do to help. I hope you start feeling better soon.

I posted to the Holiday Blues thread earlier today so I def know how shitty this can feel esp at this time of year. Hope every feels better soon.

GUYS CAN WE DO A GROUP HUG?

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Broke my right arm in a bike fall on ice last night. I'm right-handed, so unpleasantly incapacitated. Being off work for several weeks is going to make things financially difficult too.

wow that sucks :(

pp called my doc and got me some percocet so im temporarily happy again. surgery in 7 days though. blah.

Oh Sunny, I'm sorry. :-( Hopefully the percocet will help in th meantime and the surgery won't be to bad.

I'm sad because someone I care about has let me down. It's not the first time and I'm not entirely sure why. Mostly I'm just mad at myself for thinking that they wouldn't do this again. Bah. I feel like a complete idiot for thinking that they cared enough about me as a friend to not do so and keep wondering what I've done to make this happen. I feel like this has happened with a couple different people this year but this is def the worst time and keep blaming myself and wondering what I could have done differently so that this didn't happen. I just feel like a complete idiot. A sad idiot.

...AND I WAS THAT FRIEND!

Actually I wasn't, but I've been like that to a couple people. ENBB I hope they feel as shitty as I do

aw :-( A part of me hopes they feel shitty too but mostly I just wish they wouldn't be so retarded and would just talk to me about the situation. I guess I just feel really fucking dumb for being so down and upset because of this and for all I know they couldn't give a shit. Bah. Tomorrow is a 1/2 day at work and I leave tomorrow night for a week and a half vacation during which I'll see a lot of ppl I haven't seen in a long time. The Christmas and my birthday. Those are reasons not to be sad and I'm trying to focus on them but it's tough.

"Then" Christmas

krakow, just think that if you were a tween or teenager, a broken arm would be something to be proud of
and you say you need money but it might be fun to get some time off of work

Aw man Krakow I didn't even see your post. That really really sucks. :-(

Aye, the time off work is the up side. I get to go back home for xmas now, when before i couldn't as I had to work boxing day, so that's really nice.

My work mates ever letting me forget putting them in the shit over xmas will be another matter entirely when i get back. I work in a very small shop, so my sudden disappearance means that the others will have to work extra to cover. Shit like that always makes me dreadfully guilty.

currently in self-destruct mode. i've wasted everything.

^^ this man is a liar

no you haven't.

Surely not...what's getting you down LJ?

buck up young man,

my cv will read: english lit graduate who has spent 2 years of his life getting sacked, being demonstrably ill at ease with both single and coupled romantic situations, dropping out of a highly prestigious course, and posting inane crap to the internet instead of reading books, writing stories or making music

will be employed by: nobody

tendency to wallow: fatal

conveniently i am in lj destruct mode

that is not as rare as you might think. I have a friend who dropped out of a prestigious english ph.d program two months in - she is now getting an MFA at an equally prestigious institution