M4rk Cr4ig (aka Bimble) RIP

aim chatz isnt the same knowing he wont be in anymore

I never really spoke to the guy so I can't say much but seeing Bimble on a thread generally meant it came with an immense sense of enthusiasm I love ILX for, so RIP.

my posting to ilx/ilm has been so sporadic over years i didn't have the chance to cross paths with bimble in any significant way. i didn't even know he'd been banned. only time i became aware of him was on the thread he got banned from. i loved the incongruity of him slamming up the husker du videos cos he was so excited by them AT THAT TIME.

such a horrible piece of news.

A lot of the songs you all mentioned here are going to end up on a mixtape or two I'm making for him over in ILM.

I didn't know Bimble much at all but I wanted to do this for him and all the ILXors that have come together and expressed how much his presence was felt here at ILX. This is a sad loss for everyone.

That's a great thing to do Captain!

I'm tempted to post the lyrics to Spoonfed Hybrid's "Pocketful of Dust" since Bimble found them so devastating. But they're a bit much for me, now. I never met or messaged him, but through months of lurking recognized him as a kindred soul in some ways (too many). I curse the illness, addiction, and immediate means that took him away.

RIP bimble.

RIP. Someone I can't remember ever disagreeing with on ILM.

"Dance, dance to the radio," wherever you are.

i didn't know bimble irl (i don't ever IM and rarely e-mail any ILXors, not just him). but i was always thrilled whenever i saw some old thread of mine on ILM suddenly revived, or a new thread of mine bumped up to the top of the pile over there, b/c bimble had taken an interest in whatever it was that prompted me to create the thread in the first place. on those occasions, bimble's enthusiasm reminded me of what brought me here to ILX in the first place -- a love of music and wanting to find others who shared that love. i hope that ILX brought him some joy and relief in his life, and i will miss his presence.

RIP.

Bimble dude I haven't known what to say, so I thought I'd wait until I was pretty drucnk on a Fri eve

You've made me put on the Cocteau Twins at least twice. Without you we could hardly say "xmal deutschland lol".

The rest of the history I had no idea about, before some invade-lurking i did on That Thread after the fact. Wish you all peace man. His friends: wish you all the best. Keep above water please. You all rule so hard I cry.

ha, just re-reading some of his stuff. great. his collected posts should be titled I FEEL IT SO MUCH!

yesssssss!!!

just listening to Threnody right now ... RIP

heheh (except for the Threnody, that's scary stuff!)

wanted to do this for a couple days, felt too lol college, but whatevs, should get over that, I've turned forty:

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/0/0d/Edna_St._Vincent_Millay.jpg/200px-Edna_St._Vincent_Millay.jpg

My candle burns at both ends
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends --
It gives a lovely light.

I wish I could've been a proper friend to Mark, but I couldn't match his intensity very well. Very sad news. Going to listen to some Dif Juz, Diagram Bros, Industry, anything on LTM in his honor.

i really like that. xp

Never really interacted with the guy, and I can't say anything better than what's been said by about a hundred people here. He seemed to hear music in a way that I rarely am able to, and I envy him for that. RIP.

Lost & Found, don't give up on me yet. Just wait...

― which was a bit synth-cheese-tastic for my tastes (Bimble), Saturday, July 4, 2009 9:11 PM (1 month ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

Lost & Found, don't give up on me yet. Just wait...

I never give up on the good guys.

― Lostandfound, Sunday, July 5, 2009 12:10 AM (1 month ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

Last thing I said to Bimble, so glad I did.

I've lurked on ILE and ILM for a few years...Bimble was my spectator sport. I loved his posts. Sense, no sense...at his most passionate, his rants were kind of infectious for me, inspired me to love the music I loved even more. As sad as I feel not knowing him, I cannot imagine the sadness for those of you who did.

RIP Bimble. To lose someone that loves music is like losing a friend.

Just found out about this this morning, have been thinking what to say since then, but I can't think of anything but RIP Mark and I hope you've found what you were searching for that the world couldn't give you when you were here.

How'd I miss this?

A huge loss. Even in my limited interaction with him on ILM, he was a profoundly inspiring, music-loving presence. The first time I've really felt a degree of grief over losing a semi-anonymous forum colleague.

Also, have found myself today having more than a passing thought or two for his poor room-mate as well. What a hell of a thing to go through.

Haven't said anything before because I wasn't sure if it was my place, but I'm sad about this. I liked Bimble's enthusiasm for things that you don't often see people getting so enthusiastic about.

xpost You are so right, Ailsa. I feel so utterly sad for the one who found him. Of course for Mark and everyone else connected to him. But very much so for the one who found him. :-( A local guy I knew through the years, did in fact traveled all the way to the South of France to hang himself, so his family wouldn't find him. :-((((

oh fuck!

jesus i wz just thinking about emailing him...

KBP: Also, can someone let ILX know that not everyone has someone to reach out to?

can I just mention how much I really really really really wish I hadn't lost touch with him when I stopped posting on ILM? I never even sent him the email on why he should listen to The Slits...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1YkHJJi-tc&
BITCH I MISS YOU

RIP Bimble. didn't even see this thread til just now, but i did wonder where the hyper, late-night posts had gone...

god damn this is lousy news to come back to. he was a singular presence on ilm and one of the first folks whose style i was able to nail down when i was lurking and figuring this place out. rip.

this weekend felt weird not seeing his posts on ILM when he was usually the only one about.

:( I know what you mean.

I know we're not the only ones.

This is so, so, sad and I am praying for Bimble and all who love him.

I haven't been frequenting ILX in the last couple of days, so it was jaymc that told me this news. It kinda messed my head up a bit. Ok, more than a bit.

Actually, there's no stupid bloody celebrity death that could ever make me feel as awful as this.

multixp hahahah Orbital > Nick Drake.

Bimble, I love you.

What do you say? I never met him, but I hoped to. And the last I remember, he was having a bit of a meltdown... this shakes me up, and that's no joke.

This still keeps hitting me, its weird :(

I've had this paradoxical disconnect/deep sadness since this happened, which is entirely new to me b/c, prior to my involvement w/ ILX (which is, in itself, in a relatively nascent stage), I haven't really been involved in any sort of online community. As such, I've been slow to reach out to communicate w/ ilxors on a more personal level, out of shyness or whatever, tho some of you have sought me out & Bimble was one of those. We mainly rapped about music, traded files or whatever but he was still an ally, even if I didn't really know him as a person, which I might have gotten to do, if not for this.

This didn't really hit me until tonight, as I'm looking for a proper Pale Saints song to add to his ILX mixtape.

again, RIP Bimble.

Trayce ,judging by all these posts, you're not the only one. Hang in there.

It's weird, I find this hard to talk about on ILX - probably because it's too close to home.

I was online a lot at the weekend, and kept expecting to log on and see him in my inbox and he wasn't there.

I keep thinking about suicide, in the abstract, as, like a concept - it keeps popping into my head. Not in the normal kind of reflexive way, but in a "can't get it out of my head" way. The way it affects the people left behind. The hole it leaves in a community. How you never realise you're part of a community until an important member of it dies.

And that missing sense of connection to that person that's gone reinforces one's own sense of disconnection.

Because the more I read people writing about him, it's realising that he really was one of those people who functions as the glue in a community, that he had connections with so many people here, over so many different things.

Sorry, I don't express myself well, I never do.

Kate you're fine, of course you express yourself well :)

We have had several of our kin here pass away in recent years, and I still put a hand to my heart to every time I see an old post of theirs.

Ive known a few old workmates or acquaintances that have died in recent years too, from overdoses, suicide, illness. None of them were at all close.

This is the first time someone I like to think I knew well and talked to a lot has chosen this path. It feels like a breakup, oddly - going onto their stomping grounds and they're not there any more, and re-remembering.

Bimble, I am sorry I couldn't handle yr brightness. Maybe it mirrored some of my own too much. I hope you're looking down at us all and smiling though.

I'm almost always a lurker and had no interaction with Bimble at all, but I heard "Look Out Any Window" by Bruce Hornsby for the first time in the last month or so and that was down to him. Sorry to all who knew him. RIP

I suppose what I most relate to and am most shaken up about is my own occasional urge to do exactly what Bimble did. Fuck anyone who has ever said it's the "easy way out". I have taken the easy way out in almost every way in my life, but I have never taken this particular bungee jump. There's nothing easy about it. It's as difficult as it is awful. It takes something special to do it, something that I very much understand, could never possibly explain, and (thank god) do not possess, at least not as of this writing.

I wish I knew him better so I could feel real grief. That would at least clear my head and put me in a place I was not before.

I understand what you mean, Kenan. Been there, felt that way but somehow was too chickenshit scared to actually do it (or, you could say, I still saw that all things pass, even the bad shit). But then I was merely depressed, it wasn't tied to any physical pain, so I could hold on to the hope that it was changeable. And it was.

jeez, damn. r.i.p.

i didn't really interact with him here, but still, when ILXors pass it always jolts me.

I tried committing suicide a couple times because "life would be better dead", "it's the only way out". I never said I was feeling sad at the time. I said I was just irritated with the rest of the world.

Anyways, however many months after my suicide attempts I decided that I WOULD NEVER do that again. In fact I had a renewed appreciation for life.

Not to mention finally adjusting meds over the years to a workable combination (fyi. no combination is ever perfect and med adjustment takes a long time) has put me in a generally happy state today.

The fact that I would never never commit suicide just goes to show that comments like these: "suicide is just as natural thing as freedom of choice. I didn't choose to be born - I have no obligation to live" are really radical comments. I'm certain that many many people can change their mind about committing suicide. Suicide is not the only option and you can really love and appreciate life even if you don't feel like you there is anything for you at the moment. The fact that I could change my outlook on life to a point where I can say I would never commit suicide and that it's the worst thing anyone can do. This is coming from someone that was suicidal. SO NO, suicide is not natural or a free choice anyone should allow themselves to make. Being suicidal is a problem that CAN BE FIXED. Anyone can naturally find a way appreciate life 1,000,000,000 times more. It doesn't take a failed suicide attempt either. Anyone that has been thinking about committing suicide should call that help line - things can only get better. It might take time, but things do get much better.