M4rk Cr4ig (aka Bimble) RIP

Holy fucking shit. :( WHY?
He called me a few nights ago, he had been feeling awful. I don't even know what to say.

Holy Shit. Fuck. Damn..

I know his posting style was at times a bit irksome, but he was a lot of fun to spar/talk smack with ILM, where you could always count on finding him in the deepest hours of the night/morning. We had a good rapport going during the 4AD polls & those are some of my favorite ILX experiences as a result.

RIP Bimble..

wtf, this is terribly sad news. I don't know much about Bimble but seeing him on chatz few times when we were both barred...
I told him how I loved him for being a genesis fan... I never said much to him I suppose

My paltry tribute. He will be missed:

http://vassifer.blogs.com/alexinnyc/2009/08/rest-in-peace-bimble.html

I never knew things were actually *that* bad with him. I thought he was just being melodramatic.

his last blog post was orbital belfast/wasted, now listening to that track i'm getting real fucked up!

it must be raining in heaven

RI was one of the ppl that he reached out to and had an idea that things were that bad however there is nothing that I could have or was in a place to do about it. I'm worried that some other ILXORs may feel unnecessarily guilty for not having done something more. Please don't do that guys. It wasn't your job or place to do so. RIP Mark. It is obvious from this thread that he will be missed by many.

uh - "I" not "RI" obv.

oh man this is so so so sad

we traded a few emails just as over the top as the ILM posts, and I remember that was when I think I clued in to these being the upswings of a lifelong manic. I've known a lot of people like that, almost too lonely for true friendship but their peaks so often come across as gifts to the rest of the world, even if very few of us have the courage or ability to stick around when the drop happens a few hours later.

he gave so many of his happiest moments to ILX

Wow, how shocking, and how horrible to read about this. I'll probably think about the guy whenever I hear New Order. RIP.

just the most enthusiastic & positive ilm poster. now playing "inspiration" by section 25 in your honour. rip.

don't even know what to say. terrible. rest in peace.

To You, With ReGard, Mark

RIP

Although I didn't know him, he gave me a lot of pleasure and I'm really, really sad to hear this.

Shocking and horrible news. A couple of years ago, Mark/Bimble very kindly sent me a CDR of a 1984 New Order gig that I attended in Berlin - quite unsolicited, and just because I'd mentioned attending the gig on ILM. (I hadn't even realised that the show had been recorded, so it was a real thrill to receive the CD.) In return, I promised him a CDR of early 1980s post-disco/pre-house dance music - but typically, I never got round to compiling it. I enjoyed his crazy enthusiasm at face value, and never twigged that a more troubled soul lurked beneath. One of the great characters of ILM; I shall miss him. RIP.

i know some folks were put off by his style but tbqh i always thought his "taking the ball and running with it" w/r/t music and specific artists was pretty fun, esp w/r/t kate bush.

and Stevie Nicks!

yessssss

I never interacted with him, but this is incredibly sad news. RIP Mark.

I just remembered my last conversation with him in which he shocked me with the news that he loved Dolly Parton.

Only been on this board a few years, but the man's posts were as entertaining as **ck. All of a sudden this day's come to a grinding halt.
rip Bimble

Wow. Reading this thread, I had no idea that so many of y'all were so close to him (at least as far as online acquaintances go), but it makes me really glad that ILX gave him an outlet and a support system for a while. RIP.

let's face it, they don't come much more goth than Dolly. xxp

I'm in shock....I'll think of a good mini-soliloquy for him when I can move & think better...

shit. RIP Bimble :(

i didn't interact w/him much at all, but he struck me as a troubled soul and an essentially good-hearted person. hope he's at peace now.

Man, just started downloading the "Fotheringay 2" album he posted to the group some of us belonged to... weird

To interject one dissenting note here, I didn't much like his inclination to hide behind victimhood whenever one of us called him out on dumb shit; he and J0rdan fought about a month ago on the gay thread over this same problem. Also, his actual problems aside, I can't imagine hanging out with someone responding to stimuli at such a level of intensity; maybe he was just that way with us. Obviously the inclination had roots, and, we now see, tragic consequences.

I know it's pointless to think this way, but I just have to wonder - if he had a clue how many people here absolutely adored him, would he still have done it, drunk and impulsive though it might have been?

Except that kind of thing doesn't actually matter when you're in that long dark night of the soul that drives you to something like this. All you see is pain and you want it to end.

People online or at the end of a phone are not people standing next to you, holding your hand or looking into your eyes.

But you can't think like this, you just can't. You just have to believe that he is out of pain. And hope that there's a really good juke box wherever he has gone to.

ILX will be a decidedly less colorful place without him.

Masonic Boom, just so you know, he mentioned you over the phone around 5 days ago and said how much you rocked. Ditto, Alex in NYC. He loved you guys.

He was deeply upset about having been banned from ILX. I'm glad that certain people have had the civility not to post phony condolences in this thread, because they were frankly jerks to him.

I don't think I ever even talked to Bimble on the board, but he was a really interesting dude. I loved his takes on music, even (especially?) when I disagreed with them. I'm pouring out a 40 for ya, B.

so sad. RIP.

Also, his actual problems aside, I can't imagine hanging out with someone responding to stimuli at such a level of intensity; maybe he was just that way with us.

I can, though. I know few people like that, but they are the BEST people in the world. And it's sometimes frustrating or exhausting, but it's also totally worth the rollercoaster for the joy and the beauty and the insights and the... *fun* that they can bring. People like that let you see the ecstacy of life. As well as the pain.

Masonic Boom, just so you know, he mentioned you over the phone around 5 days ago and said how much you rocked.

That makes me a bit happier but also very very sad. I just HOPE HOPE HOPE that he KNEW that I felt the same way.

Of course he knew, Kate. And Alfred, no one wants your opinion.

i'm not sure, alfred, if it's necessary to point out what you disliked about him at this time. this thread is for honoring the death of a sad man, not for digging up old news.

Piss off, Turangalila. My feelings about Bimbs are pretty clear to anyone who reads English.

Alfred, well, it was painfully clear to him that you didn't like him. Do you get something out of reiterating it? What's exactly the point of your 'dissenting note'? Just wondering.

please don't do this on this thread guys

To interject one dissenting note here

If you have to preface your post with this, maybe this isn't the proper time or place.

I hadn't much direct interaction with Bimble, if any at all, but I always admired the gusto with which he threw himself into whatever it was he was currently loving. This is sad sad news.

RIP Bimble

how sad.

rest in peace.

i always liked his posts about music.

it's weird to realize how little you really know people online.

i hope everyone is okay and on the whole a vast majority of you seem like real nice folks.

He used to chastise me for signing off IM without saying goodbye; I think he took it personally, even though it was really just me being a flake. Either way, he topped me with this stunt. I just really can't believe it.

He was deeply upset about having been banned from ILX. I'm glad that certain people have had the civility not to post phony condolences in this thread, because they were frankly jerks to him.

― Turangalila, Thursday, August 6, 2009 12:18 PM (4 minutes ago) Bookmark

alright look: i was not a jerk to the guy. i think he deserved a stern talking to with regards to his posting on a particular thread, and i was very much not alone in this. for as enthusiastic as his posting was, the flip side of that coin was that it eventually tired many people, and he was a very stubborn person and refused to tone down his posting, even when he was reasonably asked to do so.

i don't want to turn this thread into a thing about what happened on ilx before he was banned but i felt the need to respond to this. i think it's fucked up that he felt the need to do this. suicide is generally a bummer.

nah he didnt take it personally, most aim folks got mad at you doing that!
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This is awful news, rest in peace. I never interacted him outside ILX, but here he always seemed like a very intense, obviously troubled, but also immensely sympathetic fellow. I do hope Jordan and other people who argued with him on ILX are not feeling guilty because of this, because the sort of problems he obviously was having are not something people on message board could ultimately solve, or be blamed for. No offense, Turangalila, but I didn't notice anyone really being a jerk to him. Even in the cases where people were (understandably) critical towards certain things he'd do, it was obvious they still had respect for him.

remember curtis, bimble said he was still more goth than you ;)
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Oh man. I didn't know him well, but always loved his posts - they may have frequently been over the top, but were never mean spirited. This is really really sad.

I was a jerk to Bimble sometimes! A lot of the time! Other times I would see things his way and reminisce about Cabaret Voltaire or Psychic TV with him. If I had thought "wow, a stranger being uncool to another stranger on an internet message board could make him kill himself," obviously I would have shut the fuck up, but sometimes we got along - he called me "a big hunk" a month ago or so. I felt like, after a lot of sparring, we had sort of found a way to get along.

I hope that when I die nobody chastises anybody who wasn't always 100% nice to me for sharing their feelings. I am sad that Bimble is dead, that he was in all that pain.

sad news. one of those posters who had definite character. rip.

My heart goes out to his family and those of you who were close to him.