smoking

can i just say, i wouldn't and i couldn't but DAMN i want a cigarette soooooo bad rn

I’m doing pretty well, thank you! My mile time is down to about a minute slower than my pre-surgery peak and it’s only bee, what, like three months of working at it. 14:30/mile is slow for anyone who’s training but faster than most everyone I know and I have one lung so I’ll take it. Haven’t seen a doctor or a tech or had a scan since February, that’s the real accomplishment

Whoa congrats Clay, that's awesome. And here I feel good about working up a sweat on the elliptical. Best wishes and good hopes, dfm!

deflatormouse i always look forward to reading your posts and i'm very glad to hear your good news

glad to hear some good news deflatormouse.

holy shit, Clay. that's incredible! says a lot both about your strength of character and what the human body is capable of. i'm really happy to hear it.

map there's so much in your posts that i relate to and so much that i admire and i've wanted to respond to many more of them really openly than i have. i haven't had the focus or the patience to do that lately.

thanks! idk about strength of character, you should see the grimness in me as i lace up my running shoes, but i push through because nobody can do it for me. i skipped a couple days recently because it was too hot even at night and the air quality was kinda crap around the 4th, and i felt actually guilty! who have i become, etc.

can i just say, i wouldn't and i couldn't but DAMN i want a cigarette soooooo bad rn

i just hit my 3 year quitting anniversary (it's really my 3 year getting sick anniversary lol) a month ago and i can say this really does pass. i thought for a long time i'd be preoccupied with constant invasive thoughts about needing a smoke, but i never think about it unless i walk by someone smoking outside (it smells so bad to me now!), and even then i'm like whoa people still smoke how wild is that. it really does just sneak off after awhile.

you should see the grimness in me as i lace up my running shoes, but i push through because nobody can do it for me.

that's just it tho, that is serious willpower, i'll bet quitting smoking is a cakewalk compared to that. but are you also enjoying it? how are you feeling just in general?

who have i become, etc.

haha🦸

i bought a pack on new years eve and there were a few left when i threw it in the trash in april, i was down to a very light habit so cravings like the one i had yesterday are rare.

it smells so bad to me now!), and even then i'm like whoa people still smoke how wild is that.

definitely!

6 years nicotine free today. about two or three times a year i am tempted to have a smoke but i know i won't and i find smoke filled environments, on the rare occassions it is still possible to encounter one, repulsive.

i do think had vaping been a bit more developed when i quit i might have gone down that route and still be a user that way, but when i quit it was still a pain and messy to vape (ie having to decant liquid into some primitive vaping contraption). i feel lucky i quit when i did in that regard.

Well done Stirmonster. I still have a few temptations a year but not slipped for 4 years now.

It gets harder by the day to comprehend how I was ever able to smoke two packs of Parliaments (later American Spirits) over 4-6 hours of drinking and still breathe the next day.

Daily?!

Nah, half or 2/3 of a pack/day and then once a week the two pack (and some extras) binge.

Trying a Parliament after smoking American Spirits for 3 years was a bigger taste shock than trying an American Spirit after not smoking for a year. Absolutely rancid, like I imagine smoking a cigarette dipped in embalming fluid would taste.

I quit over Christmas and backslid in Feb. Between my uncle dying of throat cancer last week and visiting my very-infirm father this weekend, I am utterly done with them. (It’s been 36 hours only but that’s great for me.)

4 years clean in june, and over a year now since they took out the lung. doing pretty good!

That's awesome Clay.

This July will be 12 years for me.

The best thing is my friend who I never thought would quit has for 6 months now and seems happy with the decision.

I quit when GWB was president, have probably had 6 cigarettes since? but the last time I smoked was a Marlboro Red after a particular intense group therapy session about 10 years ago. These days the smell of nonmenthol cigarette smoke is rather triggering for me, it makes me think how dumb and irresponsible I was as a young adult.

I don’t keep them around but I will still have one on occasion. I think of them like cupcakes— I don’t buy myself a cupcake or like gooey muffin treat more than a few times a year, but when I do it is because I want that particular indulgence

26 years for me in August. Which makes me feel quite old!

I currently have an older client for whom I am trying to find senior housing that accepts smokers. They appear to be nonexistent. Anyone still smoking, try to quit before you are 80 something and in need of assisted living.

the problem I've got is I only smoke when I'm drinking so even the doctor is surprised about how much I don't smoke and I assume they double or triple what I tell them like they do with booze. they were like oh really? that's probably not significant and I wasn't lying.

so smoking doesn't actually really cost me any significant amount of money or give me any health problems.

I should quit anyway because it seems like my family has two options - you die in your 50s or your 90s.

on the other hand I am beset by nihilism and often don't care if I die because what's the fucking point anyway so maybe I should just keep smoking, especially because I don't really spend that much money on it and if it does give me cancer, tbh I'd probably be ok with it. there's fuck all point being alive anyway. I've seen my wife go through it. Probably better than getting old and getting dementia or something tbh.

the problem I've got is I only smoke when I'm drinking so even the doctor is surprised about how much I don't smoke and I assume they double or triple what I tell them like they do with booze. they were like oh really? that's probably not significant and I wasn't lying.

so smoking doesn't actually really cost me any significant amount of money or give me any health problems.

This is me exactly.

oh i shd stop doing everything i enjoy

I’m on chantix again

don't know how people can maintain this kind of iron discipline one-cig-a-day regime. When I'm fiending for nicotine it's impossible to concentrate on anything, my vision goes all fucked up and I become extremely heightened and irritable. I feel like quitting vaping now. I bought some 25mg nicotine patches, but am struggling to get myself in a serious and intentful fucking off nicotine altogether frame of mind.

Until 2013 I smoked two a day, with the morning cigarette the only one not dependent on booze. I vowed to cut it the moment I got a cold -- which I promptly did a week later.

I smoked two last night because I drank and smoked a bit of pot.

I had a one cigarette a day phase last year, but it doesn't really count because I was additionally vaping.

the ability to be able to enjoy one glass of wine or maybe a bit more, but a moderate and sensible snifter of booze, one cigarette - then savour the moment until you do it again the next day. I'll never have it.

do you do this daily?

ugh sorry for being edgy

xp

I wish I could, but I tend to finish off a bottle of wine if I open it and vape quite heavily throughout the day. But I have managed to possess the discipline to not drink until after 8 pm. That's a slight improvement.