mom placation was ironing by which mens perrypops in a womansuit is the new child mystericating teats that can taint baconated digestive broads plastercasting gnostically from the great gospel wwjh

im totally getting a life slipping away feeling. im having some crazy hissyfits that occasionally reach panic attack levels about it. if something that has to be done is going to take a few months I freak out thinking about how that time was/is going to be wasted and I’ll never get it back. probably just temporary fallout from having kid and watching her grow so quick and having husband w/ cancer, i guess.

oh yeah, and getting mfing old

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Wow Sunny, I was gone awhile and missed out on the latter. I'm very sorry.

he's fine now but it took some major surgery and 6 months of chemo. i hardly have anything to complain about. it could have been worse and it wasnt me having crazy drugs pumped into me for 5 hours straight every fortnight.

That's good to hear. Still, a lot of stress to endure. Panic attacks totally make stress.

theyre kind of a annoying, i guess. ill think my way out of all this when i get less lazy. still time is passing way too quickly.

god, i know this feeling. i was so stressed about finding work, and i thought getting a job - any job - would ease that stress, but i almost feel worse. every day i wake up and think about how i'm almost 30 and i work in a shitty retail job, have a useless university education, and basically no career prospects. it's extremely depressing, and i feel like i'm running out of time to make any radical changes to the path i'm on.

i'm not particularly ambitious, i don't have huge aspirations for a career, i'd just like a job that i don't hate. technically, my job isn't that bad, and i keep trying to remind myself that i could be doing something way worse, on less pay. but this doesn't seem to be working.

Good lord, I feel that MY LIFE IS SLIPPING AWAY all the time. My son is ten years old and his feet are nearly as big as mine, plus I'm not going to graduate from this program and be able to get a job until I'm 39 and I'm just going further and further into debt.

sunny, PP's cancer story was amazingly honest and scary to read. I do hope he's well. (And if anyone missed that thread, go find it and read it).

RR - hang in there; I feel the same way sometimes.

Mark C - you crack me up.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/09/18/minneapolis.bridge.ap/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

this is like the exact opposite of the Leonard Zakum Bridge experience

My life is not slipping away, then again I am a relaxed vampire.

cool, gimme $11,000

my life is totally slipping away. i'm tired. how to fix?!

let it go, this side of slippage is quite fun.

Well, for the tired part, I'd say a glass of wine and a nap would be a good start...

"The Relaxed Vampire" would have been Anne Rice's greatest novel if she hadn't suddenly gotten Jesus. Alas.

Can I be annoyingly positive? I still have an irrepressible feeling that I can kick arse and change the world.

KANGAROO

(for those uneducated in martial and culinary arts)

Justine, I changed careers at 28 and my first job in my new life was as receptionist. There's no right way to do things and as long as you accept that the retail work is a stepping stone for future things (and you don't need to know what they are, yet), you should be able to stop worrying. I know I'm being simplistic but think of the amazing things you HAVE done - moved continent, met the love of your life, and laid the foundations for a happy future.

Ned, I have (a little embarassingly) come off of a "Twilight" high. I am interested in your relaxed vampire and would like to subscribe to your newsletter.

Please tell me how not to have a depressing weekend. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.

mark is kind of right. i was in post-college 'my degree won't get me a job' hell for a few years until i basically hit total bottom and have now spent the last 2 years slowly working my way back from that. it is so many baby steps, and it takes a long time, but i'll have a masters in may, and hopefully a higher level job by then, too (we'll see...). it's still really frustrating for me, though. i am nowhere near where i thought i'd be at this age, and i feel like my economic/professional/social lives are at a standstill. i feel like it is up to me and my attitude in the next 9 months to make or break myself with regard to my current employer. it's a lot of pressure.

I still have an irrepressible feeling that I can kick arse and change the world.

You were at the RNC right?

I didn't mean to start a possibly depressing discussion of life slipping away. I was really marveling at how time passes so quickly and how so much of it is used to deal with the mundane. I shall never kick the world's arse when I'm just living for the weekend.

hey susan, 'twilight' embarrassingly got me too - i was at work, didn't have a book, and the 19yr old goth i was working with told me i could read hers... i didn't get very far into it, but it SO reminds me of the christopher pike books i read and loved as a kid!

I am sucker for YA series. This series is no His Dark Materials but it's still a great read. I read all four of them in about two weeks and have started over at the beginning. Christopher Pike?

Actually, I do believe that Ed could kick arse and change the world.

I've been feeling low because of money stuff with insurance not covering neurotherapy for 4lex, plus spending all my time reading a freaking med surg book. I have to say, though, that when I get to clinicals, my experience has been that 1. they are impeding us with a ridiculous, sleep-depriving schedule but 2. suddenly there is a point to what I'm doing and I feel like I'm getting somewhere.

I keep reading references to "Twilight." So it's a book then? I'm so confused!

i don't know much about them, only what my girl at work told me, but it's a series of vampire novels. sounds tacky, but not bad actually.

susan, if you haven't read christopher pike, you should read 'the last vampire series'. not sure if you'll enjoy his stuff - i haven't read any since i was a kid, and it's not as 'literary' as phillip pullman, but they're short books so you'll know soon enough if you like them or not.

I will add it to my list.
Sara, it's a four-book series by Stephanie Meyers about teenage vampire (and werewolf) romance. The first book in the series is "Twilight" and the movie version of it comes out on 12/12.

let it go, this side of slippage is quite fun.

how do i make it more fun

in a few months i am going to slow down time.
i will get older but at a reduced rate
it will be like L O S T

xp Hey, I have a friend who has made a ton of money writing vampire chick lit, so I'm not going to judge it. Those books can be fun! And I need more fun in my life.

how when and why did this thread go lowercase

I'm almost always lowercase b/c I am lazy.

Ned, I have (a little embarassingly) come off of a "Twilight" high. I am interested in your relaxed vampire and would like to subscribe to your newsletter.

Let me work on that. *falls asleep in coffin*

So tell me about Blaine, where Mr. McCain and Ms. Palin are doing things today.

Hmmmm, I think I've driven through Blaine once or twice. It seemed sort of bereft of people, as I recall. But maybe it makes more sense for McCain/Palin to go there than into the Twin Cities... yeah, I have no idea why they chose Blaine. (Is it in Stearns County? That's a pretty R county).

Michelle Bachman is their Rep.

Um, they host some sort of national youth soccer championship, there. That's a big thing for Blaine. I remember quiet. I remember Cicada song. I think I got a hot dog in an SA in Blaine, once.

Michelle Bachman is vile. She has nice hair, though.

the worst "show" i ever did was in blaine. also led to someone bouncing a $13000 check to us. fuck blaine.

So, no signs of life, vile people with nice hair and financial irresponsibility = McCain/Palin are right at home!

See, it all makes sense.

yeah fuck Blaine

You first. I insist.

i wish there were still a blink function for:

god, i know this feeling. i was so stressed about finding work, and i thought getting a job - any job - would ease that stress, but i almost feel worse. every day i wake up and think about how i'm almost 30 and i work in a shitty retail job, have a useless university education, and basically no career prospects. it's extremely depressing, and i feel like i'm running out of time to make any radical changes to the path i'm on.

― your ass is (Rubyredd), Thursday, September 18, 2008 8:39 AM (2 days ago)

Blaine. Because Sarah Palin wants to speak at people who will make her voice sound less annoying.

Anoooooooohhhhhhka Couney.

She needs to go even further north. I'd like to send her to the Arctic Circle myself.

zing!

omg my life is a disaster.

that is all.

hi tza, me too. dumped, drinking way too much, kinda dislike my new job, have to leave seattle soon, no career prospects in LA, no idea what i want to do in my life.

(and on wednesday i have to fly back east to my sister's Actual Wedding and Baby Shower, present a toast to love, see her new house, and face all the guests/relatives/high school teachers who will ask me, you know, how and what i'm doing with my days)

god i dread telling ppl i haven't seen in awhile what i'm doing with my life: 'yeah i work in a clothing store' 'but didn't you just finally graduate from uni?' 'uh yeah'.

seriously, at the point when you are in the executive offices of macy's yelling at the store management for their incompetency, you realize just how ridiculous your life has become.

remy why do you have to leave seattle

More details, tza.

I'm feeling less doomed this Monday. Mostly b/c yesterday I decided I wasn't going to be unhappy with aspects of my life anymore, just pointless. Now let's see if that attitude lasts until the end of the day. I'm surprised it lasted this long.

J, I think you're forgetting how big of a thing it is to move halfway around the world, start a new relationship, etc. Cut yourself some slack and enjoy the clothes-working for awhile!