so in love with the decent past but this picture could've been took anytime, really
city lost to time, city that fell from grace with the sea
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 11:45 (2 years ago) Permalink
oh Hessle Road
half fucked now but still classic
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 11:47 (2 years ago) Permalink
best band ever btw
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 11:48 (2 years ago) Permalink
http://bill.terebenthine.free.fr/images/spiders_from_mars.jpg
This is the 2nd best band from Hull ever. They were still Quite Good.
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 11:55 (2 years ago) Permalink
man this tension between wanting to escape and knowing i won't escape very far, tawdriness in advance, wanting a pub with chet baker on the jukey or at the least Stock Aitken and Watermang's "SS Paparazzi" - lolstalgia again tho - can't even get a pint of Double Diamond anywhere now, not sure they still brew it - or that i want it tbh
not sure how much of this is the medicine flexing its muscles either but
not cut out for another 5 - 50 years of this really and pondering whether maintaining a facade of functional dignity is doing anybody any favours when i shd be beatniking it out in the wilds of this hilarious city
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:01 (2 years ago) Permalink
Allegedly - tho you know history and publicity make bitch liars and memory is quite rewriteable - this is where we started to win the Civil War. Charles was keen on coming into the city and securing the arsenal and the docks but local capitalist plutocrat guys got together in this pub and told the mayor to lock the gates and tell him to get tae fuck. which he did, against his will. this pub is really cosy and still pub-esque, which y'know is an increasingly rare fucking commodity in the 2K10s. also where i heard some dude being accused of being "racist against gays".
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:07 (2 years ago) Permalink
Pubs I have loved: the Piper, the Gardener's, Hockneys when it were old and working man's clubbish, the Golden Ball, the Engineers, the Mint, the Black Boy, the Olde White Hart, the Schnapps Bar, the Empress, the Star of the West RIP you were a beautiful dump, the Station, the Turnpike and that stupid sports bar at the back where I watched us win the play-offs and got so splattered by half time I didn't remember a fucking thing about it, also where I watched Eubank fuck up Watson but missed the fatal punch and said something unfortunate about him not getting tagged that hard
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:14 (2 years ago) Permalink
interrupted because our joel just texted to inform me that a pet shop in town is selling bird food labelled "6 fat balls for wild birds"
and I KNOW HOW IT FEELS
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:15 (2 years ago) Permalink
http://www.eyorks.com/hullpub/
this virtual pub crawl is kinda sick-making with lolstalgia. the probable siberian wind knifing ice-sleet into yr face is doing a good job of keeping my safe in the house tho. am gonna cheat and make myself a little sump'n sump'n now to tilt the balance. might as well be hung for a whole pen full of sheep etc
― Elmer Fuiud (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:17 (2 years ago) Permalink
honest to god there used to be a fishing tackle shop on Anlaby Rd called "Master Baits"
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:18 (2 years ago) Permalink
ginger beer, is there anything you don't mix with?
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:21 (2 years ago) Permalink
one can't help but feel that social evolution is something of a pig in that it discards all use for male libido about 30 fucking years before yr male does
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:23 (2 years ago) Permalink
NON-ALIGNMENT PACT YES BANG ON TIME
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:24 (2 years ago) Permalink
am looping that fucker
don't know when i, when i'll be conte-eh-eh-ent btw
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:27 (2 years ago) Permalink
really tho motivation is a funny thing. i dunno that aristotle was right about the unexamined life not being worth living but fuck i seem to see a lot of unexamination going down. ruminants. being a ruminant is plenty cool if you like cud tho. absolutely don't despise peoples alignments with themselves, just am wickedly out of sync and not getting how to get my groove "back" ha like it's been there since what 10? 5? seem to remember being reasonable centred playing army on the grass square at the top of our street but even then i was more of a cloud watcher rilly.
you reach this point when you think "man i am all ego self-centred aspie not good for people observer only bollocks" and that's a thing that you can be, one doesn't like to think it about yourself but we aren't all cut out for being productive and reasonable and loveable guys really
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:32 (2 years ago) Permalink
ginger ale not great with sambuca fwiw
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:33 (2 years ago) Permalink
got no real issues with the rest
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:34 (2 years ago) Permalink
yeah that seems true, wdn't mix sambuca tho tbh. ginger beer, not ale. I like ginger ale but it's a pretty low key mixer? have an unopened bottle that i might bring into play when the ginger beer runs out unless mrs v comes home and slaps me upside my head
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:34 (2 years ago) Permalink
which wd be a dece excuse tbh
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:35 (2 years ago) Permalink
we should totally go out on the lash, darragh, it would be most excellent times imo
no issues with that either, but no aristotle pls
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:38 (2 years ago) Permalink
i don't do aristotle in the pub, or anywhere else really, dude was shit
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:38 (2 years ago) Permalink
most tedious fucking philosopher ever award or maybe leibniz or that twat brother of Henery James's's
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:39 (2 years ago) Permalink
i forgot the old fake irish bar appendage to the mainbrace in my list of much loved pubs, and the mainbrace itself, spent a glorious new years eve in there one time off my swede on mushrooms thinking i'd got a glowing sign on my head saying "this dude's on mushrooms"
i miss hallucinogens
booze is a ready, loving, companiable buddy for ALL TIME tho
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:40 (2 years ago) Permalink
it was all-encompassing dismissal of discussion of all higher modes of though tbh
For drinking purposes, that is. Time and a place, time and a place
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:41 (2 years ago) Permalink
exackly
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:41 (2 years ago) Permalink
sport and giant animatronic goat-fucker tableaux are ideal pub convos tbh
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:42 (2 years ago) Permalink
don't even take my "oh pity poor me i is so sad" face to the boozer, it is NOT THE PLACE
i wouldnt trust booze with my money or missus but i'll go drinking with him alright.
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:42 (2 years ago) Permalink
not that i is so sad, i am kinda focused and edgy and probly not real level-headed but sadness is sort of not there except an impending "i like where this relationship is going" gif sadness and wondering hmmm can i keep up a veneer of not-great for another 10 years or so until the kids are all safely launched
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:44 (2 years ago) Permalink
goat fucker convo def has icebreaker value
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:44 (2 years ago) Permalink
he is an hull legend. shd definitely feature in the publicity blurb imo, also he is one of those dudes where everybody you meet knows somebody who knows him
but this is like the biggest village in the world so
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:46 (2 years ago) Permalink
six degrees of separation in hull = about 3
fond memories of P4ul H34ton allegedly fending off Poll Tax bailiffs with an air rifle from his Grafton Street mansion
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:47 (2 years ago) Permalink
our civic anthem
reckon a goatfucker or similar on the sound bridge would put achill on the map
Ok, on phone, in body lotion section of an actual irl fancy dept store, and my full attn is required. Continue at yr own pace will check validity of the remainder of thread later
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:48 (2 years ago) Permalink
suddenly I have Depeche Mode's "Just Can't Get Enough" with the lyric changed to "Just Can't Get It Up" stuck in my head as a good idea for a Weird Al song
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:49 (2 years ago) Permalink
am not even dressed yet but gotta admit the water on the windows did inspire a bit of "oh sweet (not)..." earlier. mostly just glad to be the not at work though evne if this afternoon fails in my quest to do anything productive 4th week running.
lucky I have the new Radiohead album to listen to, high spirits ahead!
― side splitting genital based username (fndgo), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:49 (2 years ago) Permalink
"body lotion section" is boggling and lol
dude are you stuck in Dublin now I forget?
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:50 (2 years ago) Permalink
i am inspired by people's not liking of the new Radionhead, and people saying it is all low key and tune-light, those are excellent qualities in a Radionhead rekkid to my mind
toothpaste aisle? I kind of love and hate Big Tesco
― side splitting genital based username (fndgo), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:51 (2 years ago) Permalink
Big Tesco has some great shit in it but I hardly go in any more, also it feels like a chore to trek all the way to the back of it, also the bastards took the pork and pickle pies off the deli counter
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:52 (2 years ago) Permalink
conventional pork pies don't do it for me any more, i need pickle in there or i need to be at home where i can smother that shit in mustard
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:53 (2 years ago) Permalink
something 50 Cent-ish about that last line
― side splitting genital based username (fndgo), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:54 (2 years ago) Permalink
This, btw gentlemen, is a FUCKING TUNE
is there much C&W on the Queen's jukebox, i don't remember and i feel a need? also lol my wife is gonna kill me hooray
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:55 (2 years ago) Permalink
jesus no not in dublin ffs
Tho i have days, god help me, it almost tempts as a final surrender
― Achillean Heel (darraghmac), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:55 (2 years ago) Permalink
Pringles don't seem to do Wasabi flavour or Lime and Chilli flavour any more, I am a bit heartbroken, bastards
Marty Robbins fucking rules
― fat balls for wild birds (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 19 February 2011 12:56 (2 years ago) Permalink
wot big city u exiled in then D?
thanks dude. at least i'm having the good sense to stay in today. nothing for it but to shrug and climb back on the wagon, really.
― http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDRdCdW_k3A (Noodle Vague), Friday, 3 May 2013 12:29 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
or back in bed. on the third day he rested, after all. and television really is a remarkable thing. spiralli otm.
― controversial vegan pregnancy (contenderizer), Friday, 3 May 2013 12:38 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Do what you can, hit us up and we'll do what we can
― the norman wisdom of gaffers (darraghmac), Friday, 3 May 2013 13:51 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Thinking of you, J. <3
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Friday, 3 May 2013 13:55 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Wolves manager Dean Saunders, following his side's relegation to League One: "Our fans have had three years of pain. I'll be delighted to try and change it for them.
― Nilmar Honorato da Silva, Saturday, 4 May 2013 16:22 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
worst effort at rehab ever
― Rowdy Rathore (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 18:58 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Hey
― al leong the watchtower (darraghmac), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:04 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Oh, I'm sorry NV. Hang in there, we are thinking of you. That sounds so dumb but I don't know what else to say other than what's already been said much more eloquently by others before me.
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:05 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
Ive had close experience of much worse fwiw
― al leong the watchtower (darraghmac), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:06 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
i'd beat myself up about it but that seems to make the panic attacks worse :/
― Rowdy Rathore (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:06 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
torn between feeling really fucking stupid and reassuring myself i'm probably not having a heart attack
― Rowdy Rathore (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:09 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
As someone who has had multiple panic attacks weekly over the course of the last two months and nearly took myself to the emergency room a handful of times I can tell you that you are probably not having a heart attack but God I'm sorry you're experiencing a PA right now. Scariest feeling. :/
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:13 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
i get them every time i'm hungover E so i know what it is and this was yet another reason to stop doing this to myself
― Rowdy Rathore (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:15 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
ME TOO!
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:15 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
and of course knowing what they are doesn't make them go away, thanks stupid brain
x-post - Well, not before these last couple months but during that time I had once each time I had the slightest hangover. Turns out that was a huge trigger for me and it did make me cut down my drinking (or at least rethink it) until I start feeling better.
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:16 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
No, it doesn't and that's maybe the hardest part for someone who has never had one to understand. You know what it is, you know that you're not actually having a heart attack and yet all your brain can think is OMG GONNA DIE RIGHT NOW AHHHHH. It's just such a fucking awful feeling. :/
― Airwrecka Bliptrap Blapmantis (ENBB), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:17 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
i know, at least i'm lucky in that i have the power to not get them this bad if i just keep my fat arse out of pubs
― Rowdy Rathore (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 7 May 2013 19:19 (2 weeks ago) Permalink
I found you something, maybe you will like it? Or maybe someone will.
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.html
― lets just remember to blame the patriarchy for (in orbit), Thursday, 9 May 2013 16:06 (1 week ago) Permalink
i think i do. i can't take that all in at once - i can't concentrate on reading so good right now - but yes, it speaks to me. it might speak to some of the people on the depression thread too.
thanks :)
unfortunately all i got right now is Nurse With Wound doing - take the verb how one wants - Harold Pinter
― Koné 2013 (Noodle Vague), Thursday, 9 May 2013 16:34 (1 week ago) Permalink
It would be like having a bunch of dead fish, but no one around you will acknowledge that the fish are dead. Instead, they offer to help you look for the fish or try to help you figure out why they disappeared.
:\
― Koné 2013 (Noodle Vague), Thursday, 9 May 2013 16:54 (1 week ago) Permalink
Anhedonia is real! Powerful real, unfortunately.
― free your spirit pig (La Lechera), Thursday, 9 May 2013 16:57 (1 week ago) Permalink
That's a really good depiction of one aspect of depression.
I wrote a long non-post here on some tenuous pretext of compare/contrast to the blog post but, short version, saw a ghost of my past today, it gave me a faintly disgusted look and we both returned to pretending we weren't in the same room. (Not an ex. Just a reminder of a time long ago before everyone decided I was too snooty to hang out with them when I was actually stuck in dead fish space 24/7, and it's a decade too late and still too painful to tell them, so fuck it, let them be disgusted. Who needs people when they/we are so easily disgusted by each other?)
Self-indulgent. I'm doing OK. Thinking of you, NV. & you, ENBB, too.
― susuwatari teenage riot (a passing spacecadet), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:11 (1 week ago) Permalink
that is NOT self-indulgent. it is a necessary step to admit those kinds of things and to also contemplate them.
good luck, hon.
― touch fuzzy, get dizzy (boy_slayer), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:17 (1 week ago) Permalink
We need other ppl, i think, but never as many as you'd be led to believe
― i gave ten pounds and all i got was a lousy * (darraghmac), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:19 (1 week ago) Permalink
that Hyperbole and a Half thing mirrors exactly (corn aside) what a couple of close friends have gone through and one is still going through so it made for tough reading. In some somewhat gross and parasitic way their experiences have made my bluest moments somehow more bearable, in that there's always a small element of really appreciating sometimes being able to feel good feelings, even when I'm not feeling them now.
― ohmigud (Merdeyeux), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:31 (1 week ago) Permalink
That makes a ton of sense to me. In both being the person with the dead fish and the people trying to help.
― Just noise and screaming and no musical value at all. (Colonel Poo), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:38 (1 week ago) Permalink
xxp We probably do need a few. But how to work out which, make them need you back, walk the tightrope between needing them too much and them needing you too much?
Not really breaking new ground with these questions here, I know.
xp Yeah, the strip did make me appreciate that even in my greyest months I could still get small measures of joy from listening to music. I am thankful for that, and for living in an age where I can envelop myself in music without having to play an instrument myself or go out among people or even get up and turn a record over every 20 minutes. I mean that might sound small but given that I could barely summon the energy to read books or even comics, an entirely passive method to transport myself ~out~ was a blessing
― susuwatari teenage riot (a passing spacecadet), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:48 (1 week ago) Permalink
Sorry, to find out those answers you need to purchase my book
― i gave ten pounds and all i got was a lousy * (darraghmac), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:49 (1 week ago) Permalink
Its a little scribble or two i call THE BIBLE
― i gave ten pounds and all i got was a lousy * (darraghmac), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:50 (1 week ago) Permalink
I gave ten pounds and all I got was a lousy salvation.
the previous Hyperbole and a Half adventure in depression was really good too http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html
― ohmigud (Merdeyeux), Friday, 10 May 2013 23:52 (1 week ago) Permalink
Fitba
― Koné 2013 (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 11 May 2013 17:18 (1 week ago) Permalink
it is horrible but calling my mother just reminds me how fucking glad i am that i am removed from that life
― clouds, Monday, 13 May 2013 15:31 (1 week ago) Permalink
sorry family, i just don't like you very much. you're trapped in the same cycles of ignorance and pain and i don't think i can change that.
― clouds, Monday, 13 May 2013 15:33 (1 week ago) Permalink
ultimately you can't carry the responsibility for other people's self-chosen ignorance, and nor should you
went back to work after a fortnight contemplating self-harm, dissolution, disappearance. wish i could carry that hyperbole and a half cartoon around with me. don't want to look like i'm turning my nose up at advice about positive thinking and looking on the bright side and counting my blessings and ahhh please
― the league against cool sports (Noodle Vague), Friday, 17 May 2013 09:59 (4 days ago) Permalink
ever have one of those dreams where you find your soul-mate and after some kind of wacky adventure you're (re)united and everything is mindbending bliss until you wake up and it evaporates?
those dreams come from the devil
― the league against cool sports (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 18 May 2013 11:40 (3 days ago) Permalink
Often, usually about people I know. Tragic.
I'm stranded at a legal aid conference atm, hearing all about how government cuts are going to ensure that I'm never going to get a job in my chosen career that I've been working towards for 2 years. Happy Saturday!
Idk about physical self harm though dood, couldn't you just watch YouTube vids of wolves from this season instead?
― Windsor Davies, Saturday, 18 May 2013 13:17 (3 days ago) Permalink
i'm not going to get to the point of doing anything about it, i'd just been low enough that the idea kept coming back
done with that shit and other people's misguided complaisance now, gonna get my Tao back on
― the league against cool sports (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 18 May 2013 13:36 (3 days ago) Permalink
sorry this government and every subsequent government are making this country a shithole unfit for civilized people to live in btw :(
― the league against cool sports (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 18 May 2013 13:37 (3 days ago) Permalink
cupán tao
― boyce lair (darraghmac), Saturday, 18 May 2013 14:42 (3 days ago) Permalink