Banaka, have you been diagnosed with depression in the past? Any other mental illness? Have you taken Prozac before? What kind of uncertainty do you feel?
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 7 September 2010 08:38 (thirteen years ago) link
Is it a good idea to just take it without a doctor prescribing it?
My anxiety has gone down. I still feel anxious, but in a normal way. That said, I feel like it's in a drawer waiting to pop out. lol.
Thing is, should I see a psychiatrist? Or a psychologist? Not sure. I definitely want to prolong my usage of meds.
― Nathalie (stevienixed), Tuesday, 7 September 2010 09:03 (thirteen years ago) link
The thing that worries me about Banaka is that he seems to have something other than garden-variety clinical depression going on, and Prozac may do him more harm than good.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 7 September 2010 09:18 (thirteen years ago) link
A psychiatrist can prescribe meds, a psychologist can't. I forgot, are you just seeing a regular doctor for your anxiety?
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 7 September 2010 09:23 (thirteen years ago) link
Yes, which my friend doesn't like at all. He just prescribed me some light anti-anxiety meds. She thinks I should see a psychiatrist instead of a regular doctor (and therapist). Not sure the difference between a psychologist and psychiatrist (aside from the fact the latter can prescribe meds which the former can't do). Do psychiatrist do therapy? Any advice is hugely appreciated. :-(
― Nathalie (stevienixed), Tuesday, 7 September 2010 11:50 (thirteen years ago) link
I really can't help you there, I've been getting along with just a doctor until just recently--a psychiatrist comes to the county clinic I go to once a month or two now. She reviews my meds, listens to me talk a bit, and writes me some prescriptions. You'd be seeing yours more often.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 7 September 2010 12:55 (thirteen years ago) link
In my experience, most psychiatrists don't do therapy and will refer you to a psychologist for the non-pharmaceutical aspects of treatment.
― a black white asian pine ghost who is fake (Telephone thing), Tuesday, 7 September 2010 13:59 (thirteen years ago) link
i know this feeling. the whole "i hate my job, what am i doing with my life, i will drink it away every single night and lose track of the days" thing. done it before, and i recognize its resurgence. would rather not.― ITS YA BOY (zorn_bond.mp3), Saturday, September 4, 2010 2:26 AM (4 days ago) Bookmark
― ITS YA BOY (zorn_bond.mp3), Saturday, September 4, 2010 2:26 AM (4 days ago) Bookmark
apparently since friday i have gone far enough down the rabbit hole that this already feels like a warning from SPOCK OF THE FUTURE
― friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us (zorn_bond.mp3), Wednesday, 8 September 2010 01:51 (thirteen years ago) link
Seek help, for realz. Once you get good at recognizing the warning signs, you really need to act before things get worse worse worse and you can no longer act at all.
― quincie, Thursday, 9 September 2010 00:12 (thirteen years ago) link
I mean duh you know this, but just trying to offer my internets encouragement or whatnot.
― quincie, Thursday, 9 September 2010 00:14 (thirteen years ago) link
wait - are you getting drunk as a means of dealing with depression? Bad bad bad bad bad idea. I've been there. The depression doesn't go away, you just end up with depression + a drinking problem.
― sarahel, Thursday, 9 September 2010 00:24 (thirteen years ago) link
^^^^ ditto, self-medicating not a good idea.
― quincie, Thursday, 9 September 2010 00:26 (thirteen years ago) link
Right. Alcohol is a depressant.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Thursday, 9 September 2010 01:20 (thirteen years ago) link
co-signed. the other thing alcohol does is really fuck up your decision making. had to force myself away during my bouts.
It really sucks that intelligent people with excellent taste in music are all suffering when there are plenty of useless douchebags I know who are perfectly comfortable with themselves :/.
stay strong to all who are posting here with heavy hearts and tense minds!
― Bo Jackson Cruise Control (San Te), Thursday, 9 September 2010 03:02 (thirteen years ago) link
alcohol is a depressant fyi
― BIG HOOS is the coxsteen of that particular groop (BIG HOOS aka the steendriver), Sunday, January 18, 2009 7:38 AM (1 year ago) Bookmark
this motherfucker knows whats up
― friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us (zorn_bond.mp3), Thursday, 9 September 2010 03:59 (thirteen years ago) link
Fifty days of Fluoxetine (20mg), how much better should I feel in your collective experiences? I don't feel as awful as I did, but I certainly don't feel "good" by any stretch.
― get the fuck out of my mouth (boxedjoy), Monday, 6 September 2010 18:10 (3 days ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink
I take something similar (Sertraline, 100mg daily) and yeah, its p much 'stopped crying myself to sleep every night', motivated to do one or two things a day - not skipping up the hillside. Baby steps innit.
― a hoy hoy, Thursday, 9 September 2010 04:22 (thirteen years ago) link
Group hug! Group hug!
But seriously, I'm glad that we've established this nice little support group here on ILX. I know it's been helpful to me.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Thursday, 9 September 2010 04:41 (thirteen years ago) link
Lost another friend to this motherfucker last night.
Don't know how yet...grad school admins. only confirmed that she did it herself.
poof! and gone
fuck
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 04:54 (thirteen years ago) link
damn, so sorry hadrian.
― having taken an actual journalism class (contenderizer), Thursday, 9 September 2010 04:57 (thirteen years ago) link
:( i'm sorry, man.
― friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us (zorn_bond.mp3), Thursday, 9 September 2010 04:59 (thirteen years ago) link
Oh, shit. Keep in touch with us, OK?
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:02 (thirteen years ago) link
Thank you guys
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:03 (thirteen years ago) link
Is there a more simultaneously unbelievable and perfectly logical act than suicide?
rephrase: It just struck me again, immediately upon hearing of her death, that of course she killed herself
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:04 (thirteen years ago) link
"I can't believe it—""I saw it coming—""I can't believe it—""I saw it coming—""I can't believe it—""I saw it coming—"
&etc.
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:06 (thirteen years ago) link
If it's not too painful for you right now, tell us a little more about her.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:09 (thirteen years ago) link
She was quiet and small and reserved, until she punched you a new eye-hole. She wrote about piloting airplanes and was always spectacularly dressed. I got to know her best through her writing, which I guess is a specific and maybe narrow way point of entry. But deep. She had been hospitalized for a month earlier this year.
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:20 (thirteen years ago) link
Hospitalized for depression?
I'm really sorry that you and her loved ones have to go through this.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:27 (thirteen years ago) link
Yeah.
I can't even begin to imagine what parents go through with this shit. I'm a dad myself and just...it's gotta be bottomless.
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:33 (thirteen years ago) link
Hey way to depress the depression thread!
You guys were just group hugging too.
Sorry all.
― Hadrian VIII, Thursday, 9 September 2010 05:34 (thirteen years ago) link
So now we group hug you.
― friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us (zorn_bond.mp3), Thursday, 9 September 2010 06:10 (thirteen years ago) link
Had finished a bottle. Was reading some girl's poems. Heard my ex's voice in my head say "she's better than you." Stalked to the kiitchecn to finish the vodka left tin the freezer.
― friends don't understand us, adults don't understand us (zorn_bond.mp3), Saturday, 11 September 2010 07:23 (thirteen years ago) link
is a lowdown shakin chill
― having taken an actual journalism class (contenderizer), Saturday, 11 September 2010 09:46 (thirteen years ago) link
is an achin old heart disease
― having taken an actual journalism class (contenderizer), Saturday, 11 September 2010 09:47 (thirteen years ago) link
manic depression is a frustrating mess.
― Paul McCartney to be Fetid at White House (Pillbox), Saturday, 11 September 2010 09:52 (thirteen years ago) link
hate this shit
― hk phooey (crüt), Tuesday, 14 September 2010 14:30 (thirteen years ago) link
feel like the bottom has been falling out of my brain bit by bit since I started college
― hk phooey (crüt), Tuesday, 14 September 2010 14:36 (thirteen years ago) link
oh man hadrian, hugz.
by the end of today i am determined to tidy up. considering my room has become a festering mess of non living for about a month and a half, this will be quite an achievement. must shower, get dressed and open the curtains first. this is terrible form for nearly 4pm, i know, but i am determined(ish)!
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 14:41 (thirteen years ago) link
maybe a nap first.
thoughts to all itt
― k¸ (darraghmac), Tuesday, 14 September 2010 14:50 (thirteen years ago) link
Hadrian, how are you holding up?
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:17 (thirteen years ago) link
A Hoy Hoy: Don't try to do everything at once or you'll get discouraged. Clean yourself first, then take care of anything unsanitary or dangerous, then anything that's just messy. I was deep into Level III clutter most of the time I was lived in Fort Myers, and I'm emerging from Level I now.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:23 (thirteen years ago) link
ok. 2 points down on my 15 pt list (shower, dress), now on 3rd - collect and throw away rubbish. might as well ask now for the time i get to it, any good tips on hoovering behind objects you aren't going to be moving any time soon? p certain the huge collection of dust under my bed is having an adverse reaction to my health
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:24 (thirteen years ago) link
well i'm not going to be around tomorrow or thursday as i'm going to house/babysit for my sis, so i'd like to come back to organisation and cleanliness - think it'll be helpful in sorting shit out and easier to keep that way. already past my first cup of tea into it tho.
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:26 (thirteen years ago) link
If you can't get the vacuum to reach behind something large and immobile, get a dirty Tshirt or towel out of the laundry, wrap it around the brushy part of a broom, and use it to dust/sweep behind the thing.
― Q: What's small, clumsy, and slow? A: A toddler. (Laurel), Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:27 (thirteen years ago) link
ty ty :)
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:28 (thirteen years ago) link
np! gl!
― Q: What's small, clumsy, and slow? A: A toddler. (Laurel), Tuesday, 14 September 2010 15:34 (thirteen years ago) link
ok taking a break for a walk for some chinese food and some headache tablets. but ticked off 'throw out rubbish' and 'sort clothes' although that last one is a cheat as it was really just 'fold clothes and throw them in the bottom of the wardrobe'.
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 16:52 (thirteen years ago) link
whatever works!
― peacocks, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 16:53 (thirteen years ago) link
dunno why i am liveblogging this.
― a hoy hoy, Tuesday, 14 September 2010 16:55 (thirteen years ago) link