M4rk Cr4ig (aka Bimble) RIP

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Hi guys, I went away from ILX for a year and a half or so b/c my job got too busy to post anymore, but about 6 months ago started lurking a lot again. Bimble's suicide has really shaken me. Thinking about it so many times since Thursday morning. He was my age, and his relationship to music so similar to mine. He's basically a peer. And god help me, I did tease him after Tony Wilson died and he was flipping out.

When someone takes their life, for me it creates this terrifying black hole, it tears a big rent in reality and rationality. Just once I got horribly close to that precipice, 19 years ago. Straight-up garden-variety depression with an OCD/anxiety component has always been my deal, and that shit has been managed quite well with SSRI's for like 15 years now, but the fear that my mind could simply destroy me like it tried to in 1990, that my mind is DANGEROUS, is apparently going to ride with me daily for the rest of my life. Only my evergreen Reagan-child terror of nuclear holocaust is as perennial a companion.

Abbott, there's nothing wrong with falling back on yr klonopin at a time like this, I've done exactly the same. Pretty soon, just knowing I have it on hand to fall back on denecessitates me actually taking any.

I am so hungry to know more things about Bimble's demise, so I can fit the event back into the causal universe, but I know that's not really healthy. RIP Bimble-- I hope your soul has become sound.

Ha, klonopin wasn't even my idea! The husband has an rx for it & was basically like "god, for fuck's sake, take one of these."

xp

I can't possibly say more than that, or better.

If anyone wants to talk/vent/cry over the online btw you can email me at igotabeefpastry @ gmail . com

RIP Bimble-- I hope your soul has become sound.

Lovely words. He seems to reverberate all through ILX now.

xpost Klonopin is v v handy at crisis times. Although there's a Stevie Nicks connection which is a little disturbing at the moment. And you really truly can't drink on it.

(mh, i really hope your girlfriend can find help/a way out of the darkness.)

Fuck. Just seen this. Very sad.

Goddamnit I still have the acrid feeling in my stomach... I'm still expecting the chat bubble to pop up at an inopportune time telling me to go listen to a Wake 12" or twenty-five year old Simple Minds outtakes.

This is so, so sad. What a great loss. I am praying for Bimble and all who love him, and everybody's words on this thread are astonishingly lovely.

Bimble, for a while, you were great fun to obsess about music with.

I feel really weird about his last.fm. The last few things he heard, I had just recently sent him --- and the fact that the last one he ever played was Penderecki's Threnody is creeping me the fuck out. He immediately sent me an e-mail telling me how scary and goth he found it.

― Turangalila, Monday, August 10, 2009 12:55 PM (Yesterday) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

thank god he sent you that email Turangalila - one of my biggest anxieties induced by this whole thing was the possibility that he blew his brains out to Penderecki (sorry for bluntness but that's how my brain kept wording it.)

also Abbott don't rely too much on klonopin or before you know it your anxieties will be 10x greater from withdrawals. just based on personal encounters w/rx drug abuse + depression

looks like curtis thought the same about that track as i did then.

But it was 2 days before the police said he'd died... unless.. oh anyway, I dont want to dwell :(

yeah but he died on sat night

xpost yeah, that's why I felt the need to point it out.

@Turangalila, thanks for telling that. I've had the same thing, image, on my mind as Curtis and Pfunkboy..

the fuck is klonopin. is that like valium or something?

yes

once i took valium, and i shouldn't have. felt good though!

Katy Perry in 10 yrs.

I'm really sad he missed getting hyped about the Stone Roses rerelease.

also Abbott don't rely too much on klonopin or before you know it your anxieties will be 10x greater from withdrawals. just based on personal encounters w/rx drug abuse + depression

Ah no worries, I haven't done it since that day & before that not since March. It's like a for-emergencies-only thing. thx for the kind advice tho (not sarcasm).

anyway, yeah, I am very sorry, if nothing else

Just read Drew's tribute on Pfork this morning -- I spend most of my time on ILM so hadn't come across this thread/news. Just shocked and saddened... We emailed from time to time and Mark always seemed full of life, granted he was talking about the Bunnymen shoe with the full orchestra that he had recently seen, or some other passion of his at the moment. I knew he was troubled but never knew the extent of it, or that it may have come to such an end. RIP, Mark -- we'll see you on the other side, someday.

link?

Its on Pitchfork ffs, Google broken?

i looked on pitchfork - it wasn't on the front page and the search didn't turn up anything.

Scroll down the page:

http://pitchfork.com/features/guest-lists/7698-guest-list-2000s-edition/3

Sorry that was a snotty response and certainly not in the spirit of this thread.

wow <3 drew for that entire article :)

Bimble's suicide still gets to me a few times a day, every day.

Yeah I often think of certain bands or songs he loved and get sad.

I think of him every time I play The Velvets.

I've been listening to Bruce Hornsby for the first time since I was a kid (parents were big fans) due to Bimble, and think of him when I listen. The music's obvs dated, but it sounds fantastic! so catchy.

also, agreed Drew's article is terrific.

Yeah it is, <3 Drew for what you wrote. Unlike Momus and his unpleasant aggrandising lies.

thats a really nice tribute.

Bimble's suicide still gets to me a few times a day, every day.

me too. I still come across albums that I want to make his fuckin day with.

I'm glad you guys are cool with it, I wasn't really sure about talking about Bimble in public and on another site as if I had some particular expertise or right to do so, but the more I thought about it, I finally just decided that it felt appropriate in the context of remembering things that gave us pleasure and meant something. Mostly I wish Bimble was alive to talk shit online with; just yesterday I was listening to Felt and thought "I wonder if Bimble thinks . . ." and then went, oh, right.

It was very appropriate and very well done.

Seconded. I'm glad you wrote it.

Me too, and Curtis otm with what he said. Everytime i hear something or read about something i still feel the urge to pass on the links to Bimble knowing he would love it.

great piece, yeah, and v cool of p4k to allow it!

thoughtful and thought-provoking. thanks NPS.

(glad I missed that momus stuff/what a prick)

was reading through the whole Guest List thingy on the bus tonight, without seeing this revive - Drew's was so wonderful, and so out of place, that I wish they'd given it at least its own page of the section.

I want to link Bimble to this so bad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxZX8LpFOKo

oh wow

I'm pretty sure that I never had any interaction with Bimble. None that I can remember. But his passing, and the sentiments and feelings expressed on this thread really make me realize how important this board is.

I would obviously prefer that there were one more registered user online. RIP, Bimble.