Erin Gibson, of the Talking Shade podcast, has (half-jokingly?) outlined her suicide pact with herself when she reaches a point where she's no longer going to be able to take care of herself. It involves a trip to Paris, a luxurious hotel suite, and an indulgent pile of pills. She knows her gay audience.
― insidious assymetrical weapons (Eric H.), Monday, 13 March 2017 16:08 (seven years ago) link
i could not relate to that article at all personally speaking but it was interesting. it did make me examine how the conditioning of growing up in the closet may have molded me, so far the results are inconclusive tho.
― J0rdan S., Monday, 13 March 2017 20:27 (seven years ago) link
Molded you in what ways?
― insidious assymetrical weapons (Eric H.), Monday, 13 March 2017 20:29 (seven years ago) link
we might know when we're dead
― the Rain Man of nationalism. (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Monday, 13 March 2017 20:29 (seven years ago) link
that damn epistemology of the closet again
i dunno, i never really considered the longterm effects of the closeted life beyond not having sex until i was 20 because i don't really feel as if i'm a different person in any drastic way, but that article got me to thinking more about it. for some reason i had never really connected my general inclination to deal with internal turmoil silently and privately to that but i think that probably explains a condition i've carried w/ me into adulthood.
― J0rdan S., Monday, 13 March 2017 20:34 (seven years ago) link
xp Reading The Velvet Rage helped remind me that, though I'm always quick to point out that I (unlike many in my generation) identified as gay long before I was a practicing gay, there were those five or so years between knowing I was gay and admitting it to anyone.
― insidious assymetrical weapons (Eric H.), Monday, 13 March 2017 20:34 (seven years ago) link
only 5? not bad
― Supercreditor (Dr Morbius), Monday, 13 March 2017 21:29 (seven years ago) link
I knew I was queer before I was gay: I didn't much cotton to the idea of "dating," whether men or women, I read a lot, preferred the company of friends, liked Henry James, etc.
― the Rain Man of nationalism. (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Monday, 13 March 2017 21:34 (seven years ago) link
(ie you've heard Stephin's 50 Song Memoir already?)
― Supercreditor (Dr Morbius), Monday, 13 March 2017 21:41 (seven years ago) link
I heard 10 songs, my anxiety increasing as I realized he'd hired no guest singers.
― the Rain Man of nationalism. (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Monday, 13 March 2017 21:44 (seven years ago) link
entering his full Noel Coward phase
― Supercreditor (Dr Morbius), Monday, 13 March 2017 21:50 (seven years ago) link
i can't remember if i subconsciously realized i was gay but the first time the thought of a guy made me cum i realized there was no turning back (even tho there is, but i think i knew there wasn't)
― J0rdan S., Monday, 13 March 2017 21:59 (seven years ago) link
" I read a lot, preferred the company of friends"
Female friends or male friends, Alf? I barely had any male ones.
― Heavy Doors (jed_), Monday, 13 March 2017 23:46 (seven years ago) link
Do you mind that I call you Alf?
― Heavy Doors (jed_), Monday, 13 March 2017 23:47 (seven years ago) link
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― Heavy Doors (jed_), Monday, March 13, 2017 7:47 PM (t
Male! Still is. I've got a number of close women around me, but I've got bros, most of whom are straight.
― the Rain Man of nationalism. (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 14 March 2017 01:53 (seven years ago) link
plenty in that article strikes a v real chord and mostly the bits that don't scan less as unrecognisable and more "there but for the grace of god" etc - my not having addiction or mental illness problems feels more like a lucky combination of personality, social circle choices and the bubble of my industry than things that could only happen to other people
― lex pretend, Tuesday, 14 March 2017 14:00 (seven years ago) link